11.05.06
Wired
Yea! We are officially connected.
10.16.06
The Rose
Sigh…..no, I’m not going to break into a rendition of Bette Midler’s song. As many of you know, I belong to a group called the Family of Women (aka FOW) that focuses on having successful relationships. We have a few Legacy pieces. These are items that we believe embody certain aspects of a woman in her power. On Monday October 9th, we had nominations for the four Legacy pieces. Before nominations were made, a description of each item was read. As I stood there in the circle of women, I cannot tell you how unworthy I felt to be there. I kept thinking of where my marriage has gone, and what that relationship looks like and what that effect will have on my sons. There are times I question my decision to leave, albeit, those times are few and far between now.I was nominated for and voted to hold the Legacy piece called The Rose. To me it represents a woman in her soft feminine power; a woman with the ability to heal the world, one person at a time. The women who have held any of these Legacy pieces have always been very powerful, amazing and inspiring women living their dreams. I am honored to be asked to hold one of these pieces. When I think of The Rose, I can truly feel the weight of the 100+ women in our FOW Branch. It is an awesome responsibility and I pray that I do right by it.
That same night, I dreamt I was a crystal/dew drop nestled into the cup of a lone rose petal afloat on the wind and water. I remember feeling secure and save in my single rose petal and knowing that I was being taken where I needed to be. I just needed to trust and surrender on my journey. With this came peace.
So here I am, trusting the women in my life and taking the first scary step into the unknown with my sons in tow. I no longer have the security of my marriage to hide behind. What I do now is for me and my sons.
Rose Blessings
07.24.06
Don Ramon Chavez
Don Ramon left our world last night July 23rd at 11:30p. Any thoughts or prayers will be appreciated. He was a well respected man in his community, loved dearly by many and a father figure to my dad.
May you find peace.
Chaparra
07.14.06
Nathaniel Michael Castonguay
Welcome Nathaniel Michael Castonguay. Born July 13, 2006 at 10:33p May the gifts of love, compassion, strength, clarity, peace and security be bestowed upon both you and your mother.
Welcome Jasmine Castonguay to the sacred community of Motherhood. May you be embraced, loved and supported on this new journey. May you find the strength and courage to be everything and more for your son.
DiDi
07.13.06
River
I breath deep and feel the waters move within me. I am the destructive floods, the gentle lakes, the calming rivers and the vast oceans. The tides ebb and flow around me pulling me to drift out into the unknown. I am caressed and washed clean being reborn unto my self. I am left at peace on the shores of consciousness with the waters pooling around me. I am the Living Mother with the power to create, give birth and heal. I hear Her song. I have chanted it before and have forgotten. I have been awakened.
Flowing river in me
Flowing river in me
Flowing river in me
~Nia Dragonsong
07.12.06
Joy
I woke up this morning feeling a little joy in my heart. Things are feeling good, the storm is passing. It feels like spring to me, not summer–new growth, new life, new blooms. I’m able to more clearly (literally–just had laser eye surgery 
) the things and people around me. I can accept and appreciate who they are and the gifts that they bring.
Namaste
Never Let Me Down
I’m taking a ride
With my best friend
I hope he never lets me down again
He knows where he’s taking me
Taking me where I want to be
I’m taking a ride
With my best friend
We’re flying high
We’re watching the world pass us by
Never want to come down
Never want to put my feet back down
On the ground
I’m taking a ride
With my best friend
I hope he never lets me down again
Promises me I’m as safe as houses
As long as I remember who’s wearing the trousers
I hope he never lets me down again
Never let me down
See the stars they’re shining bright
Everything’s alright tonight
~ Depeche Mode
But Not Tonight
Oh God, it’s raining
But I’m not complaining
It’s filling me up
With new life
The stars in the sky
Bring tears to my eyes
They’re lighting my way
Tonight
And I haven’t felt so alive
In years
Just for a day
On a day like today
I’ll get away from this
Constant debauchery
The wind in my hair
Makes me so aware
How good it is to live
Tonight
And I haven’t felt so alive
In years
The moon
Is shining in the sky
Reminding me
Of so many other nights
But they’re not like tonight
Oh God, it’s raining
And I’m not containing
My pleasure at being
So wet
Here on my own
All on my own
How good it feels to be alone
Tonight
And I haven’t felt so alive
In years
The moon
Is shining in the sky
Reminding me
Of so many other nights
When my eyes have been so red
I’ve been mistaken for dead
But not tonight
~ Depeche Mode
06.30.06
Surprise
I keep blinking. I think I am dreaming. It looks like the Website Faerie has visited me. It’s a beautiful surprise. Makes me feel kind of shiny and new.
06.29.06
Side Of The Road
Talk to me baby
Say something nice
Talk to me honey
I need your advice
Never my forture
Never my fame
I don’t wear diamonds
I don’t drink champagne
I’ve learned a lot that i don’t want to know
Take me back to where we were so long ago
Take me down easy
Take me down slow
By the side of the road
Slow me down baby
Drive for a while
Pull over baby
I’ve put on my miles
We’re running and buzzing and talking about
All kinds of things i can do well without
Drive me to where we were so long ago
Bottle of wine and i’m ready to go
Lets have a drink to the car radio
By the side of the road
I can remember
Us laughing in bed
Hung over
Happy
And holding our heads
We didn’t care about what people said
It’s hard recognizing a dream that’s gone dead
Me and my liquor
Feeling alone
Nowhere to go
So i guess i’ll go
You were the first and the only one
By the side of the road
By the side of the road
By the side of the road
~Concrete Blond